Survey

((Life))
-they call me: Cassandra
-status: Surviving
-occupation: Camp person
-best friend: Katee
((Rewind))
-my first breath of air: September 26th 1989
-most memorable memory: being with kids at camp
-worst memory: becoming diabetic
((Love))
-Love is: awesome
-Love or lust: love
-When love hurts, you: I write, draw and cry
((Opposite Sex))
-turn ons: nice features, beliefs
-Do your parent's opinion on your bf/gf matter to you: yes.
-where do you go to meet new people: youth group, camp, church
((Picky Picky))-cat or dog: cat
-short or long hair: short on guys! definatly!
-rain or shine: shine
-sun or moon: moon
-one best friend or ten acquaintances: one best friend with ten acquaintances!
-summer or winter: summer! CAMP!
-playstation or nintendo: neither...-car or motorcycle: car
-house party or club: neither...unless its calm
((Lately))
-how are you today: hmm...hyper?
-what pants are you wearing right now: jeans - point zero
-what shirt are you wearing right now: Hip Hop dance shirt with JPC/Wabana sweatshirt
-what does your hair look like at the moment?: different...
-how is the weather right now: dark, snowyish
-last person you talked to on the phone: my mommy
-last dream you can remember:lol that Mike and I were being hunted down by someone...dont know who dont know where...
-who are you talking to right now: Mary and Domenica
((More About You))
-what are the last four digits of your phone number: why do you want to know?
-if u were a crayon, what color would you be ? aquaish greenish blueish
-what's the next cd you are going to buy: Anberlin
-have you ever won any special award: of course...im special
-how many kids do you want to have: as many as God allows me to
-shampoo: dunno...whatever is up there
-how many TV's do you have in your house: 2
-do you have your own TV: no
-who do you dream about: someone...dont ask
-who do you tell your dreams to: friends...ppl
((Have You Ever))
-drank: no alcoholic drinks...water and diet coke? yes
-stayed in your pj's all day: yeah
-left your province: yeah
-drank milk straight from the carton: ewwww no! i dont like milk!
-tripped up the stairs: all the time...where is the fun if you dont?
-tummy ache: aww i used to get them every night
-wished upon a star: no...who does that?
-had it come true: my prayers have!
-slapped someone: hmm...hard? not really (do little brother's count?)
-danced like a maniac: yeah i was accused of being on drugs once
-chased a butterfly: when i was a kid...okay okay last summer
-gone on a cruise: no...dont i wish
-driven a motor boat: no been in one...not driven it tho
-put salt on a slug and watched it shrivel up: who is sick enough to do that?!!?
-burned stuff just because: of course at camp...we tried burning frye's school work and some lemonaide!
-been called a pyro: yeah...at camp! lol
-seen a ghost: nope...ghosts dont exist...only demons and angels!
-had something published: hmm..cant remember
-written on money: no! i spend it to fast! lol
-lost someone you cared about: yes...my grandpa!
-ran away: yeah...awhole block...lol
-punched a wall: yeah...it hurts tho...wouldnt recommend it
-punched a person: again do little brothers count?
-talked to a street sign: no but i know someone who has talked to a mailbox downtown Chicago! lol!
-shopped at wal-mart for over an hour: Of course! Wal*Mart is the ultimate store!
-been a hero: i dont know...probably!
-taken a picture of yourself: yeah all the time! i cant get enough of myself! lol j/k but yeah i have!
-had a journal: yeah a prayer journal
-worn mardi-gras beads: not that i can remember...they bug me
-been to Mardi-gras: ha ha ha no!
-heard a damaging story about your parents when they were younger/or older: who hasnt?
-heard of blind melon: huh?!
-started a trend: who knows?
-been to a rally (for a cause, not a pep-rally): umm kinda...
-given up on your dreams: depends....-had your dreams come true: depends...
-seen someone as your guardian angel: yeah...God
-protested the national anthem by not standing when everyone else does: no...i think that is rude!
-been to a sit-in: huh?
-had a pen-pal: well yeah but we never wrote
-gone out with one of your best friends: not yet
-put a message in a bottle: no but i think i had a dream once...
-sent a telegram: they still exist?
-received flowers: yeah from my grandpa
-listened to a sea-shell: yeah its cool
-been stung by a jellyfish: no but my grandpa was
-been on tv: of course...im diabetic!
-played tag when you were over the "acceptable" age: whats the "acceptable" age?
-notice patterns in the time (11:11, 12:34, etc...): all the time
-had your mom show off embarrassing baby pictures of you when your were little to your friends/boyfriend: not so much my mom as my dad
-been arrested: nope
-been put in jail: nope
-been put on trial: nope
-re-named yourself: tried in grade 6
-followed someone just because: all the time...when i get bored at the mall
-been stalked: yeah it was creepy!
-stalked someone: again at the mall
-lived a day like it was your last day: depends...
-had your 15 minutes of fame: no because i am saving it
-been in a band: at school?
-started a band: ha ha ha always dreamed to...
-had a real conversation with your parents, with NO lies whatsoever: Yeah of course because... Liars burn in Hell
-sat and watched smoke float through the air: umm...depends on the type of smoke...
-want to be somewhere with someone so much it made you cry: ummm..not recently
-played a practical joke: yeah when i was younger i put salt in my bros drink
-had a practical joke played on you: attempts...they dont work i.e. the chainsaw at camp
((People Think))
-my father thinks I am: strange...i have mood swings
-my mother thinks I am: her little gurl
-you are often complimented for: being weird
-you get embarrassed when: someone says something about someone i like
-what makes you happy: friends
-upsets you: having friends get mad at me or another friend
((Yes or No))
-you keep a diary: sometimes
-you like to cook: yes-you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: yes.
-you're in love: do we know what love is?
-you set your watch a few minutes ahead: no...no point to it
-you bite your fingernails: when i am nervous
((I Statements))
-i am: eating popcorn
-i want: diet coke
-i have: an itchy nose
-i wish: that some ppl would see some stuff
-i hate: satan-i miss: camp
-i fear: spiders/demons/heights
-i hear: Jeremy Camp
-i search: for freedom
-i wonder: why people swear
-i regret: saying some stuff
-i lie: i try not to
-i always: screw up
-i am not: going to back down
-i dance: for the Lord
-i cry: when people dont see the Way
-i am not always: happy
-i write: a whole lot
-i win: my battle
-i lose: my sin
-i confuse: most
-i need: nothing that God won't or hasnt already given me
-i should: witness

Okay...this is for Mary

Okay Mary...I am updating my blog...happy? lol! well...there's not much to say...I am very happy that my friend is back! We are having so much fun hanging out and doing random things...lol his cat is evil...it attacked Emily! lol! That was funny! Let's see...well today I had a random attack that I just needed to pray so I asked my teacher if I could leave and get a friend and she let me...so Domenica and I went and talked over some things that we have both been thinking... I just ask each and everyone who is reading this if you would just pray for me and some of my friends...there are some hardships coming soon...please pray! That is all I ask!

Depression

Depression? It is really scary! The random times I get the little burst of depression I have no idea why I do...but I have problems breathing and I just want to curl up and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry until I can't cry anymore...today in math class it happened...not easy...some may say "oh this must be guy related" its not...i dont think... some will say "its nothing" but i dont think thats so either....i dont know....i just wish it wouldnt happen so often....twice in the past 24 hours....its never been so close together...they scare me and i dont know what to do with them but let them take their course...though they usually leave me extremely sad and depressed after them...unless theyre at night...which they quite often are...anyways I am sure all of you really dont want to hear about my problems so I will go now

Prayers Answered!

Hey everyone! I have had an awesome week this week! I can only thank one person...GOD!!! He has just answered some prayers that I have been longing for to be answered...just a few more steps and it will complete! I am soooo excited!! Man! I could never ever ever turn my back on God...I dont know where I would be without Him!!! I would probably be dead...without God I would have probably not survived to see my fifteenth birthday...so I thank Him from the bottom of my heart right up to the top of brain!!!! THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH LORD!

Christmas time!!

Christmas time is upon us! It is a time for love, laughter, sharing, caring and friends! But most importantly it is a time to remember that Christ came to the world...later on in the year we celebrate the fact that Jesus Christ died on the cross for our sins and rose again three days later...this is called Easter...yes Easter is not a time for chocolate and eggs but a time of reverance towards God and all the sacerfices He made. But as it is not Easter yet, we'll stick with Christmas and why it is important! Many people think that Christmas is all about buying gifts for others, being with family, eating a lot of food and gorging on candy...yeah those things are important and all but guess what...those aren't the most important things about Christmas!! Christmas is about remembering that little baby asleep in the hay...Jesus...We've all heard the Christmas Story with Jesus, Mary and Joseph in Bethleham in the stable out back of an overcrowded inn...but do we ever actually take time to slow down and think of the fact that Jesus chose to come and GIVE us His life so that we may enter His courts! People have made Christmas into a secular craze...with Santa and his reindeer and stockings and trees and tinsel and lights and candy and presents the list goes on and on! Without Christ there would be no Christmas! Like come on! Even the word Christmas has Christ in it.... CHRISTmas...guess what...even Xmas has Christ in it...did u know that in Greek or Latin the name Christ starts with an X...I do believe it is spelt Xchristo...and actually a Christian man started using "Xmas" to shorten Christmas on a sign...so even saying "Merry Xmas" you are really still saying "Merry Christmas"...no matter how you go about this...you end up still with Christmas...even this whole new thing about "Winter Holidays" is really Christmas...because we sing Christmas songs in choir and play Christmas songs in band...and sing Christmas carols at Christmas Music Night...You can't stop Christmas....Nor can you take Christ out of Christmas!

Music!!

Music...cant live without it!! honestly! i love it...as long as its the right music...its gotta first pass the Bible test...is it True? Is it Honest? Is it holy? Is it upright? Is it pure? Is it pleasing to God? Basic Bible test on it! Man I thank God for all the music...seriously! how dull would life be without music?? i love it!! God is good to us!! AMEN

Fighting?

Christians - we fight all the time? anyone else realize that? its a u say this i say that! kind of thing...man thats how wars start! and guess what! God calls us to unite under Him...not to argue amongst ourselves...we are suppose to be out witnessing not sitting at home arguing on whether or not you believe exactly the same thing...its like reading a book, say Harry Potter...one person may think one thing about it and another person another thing about it...but theyre not going to bash each others heads in because they think different things...yet christians seem to do that...and plus we as christians say we want to follow God's word...yet most of us dont go help those in need of help! God says we are to help those in need of help...hurricane katrina happened we as christians need to help out! please! consider this...for more info on this kind of thing go to a few sites:
www.brettullman.com
www.jesusontario.com
www.heroholiday.com

Spiritual Gifts

http://www.churchgrowth.org/cgi-cg/gifts.cgi
Here is a site to go see what you're spiritual gift is! I hope you enjoy :)

Friends!!

Okay, a positive post instead of venting! I love my friends! Friends keep your morals up! I know I can trust them! Well most of them...you know who you are if I trust you! I love them all to bits! I wish I could just spend hours upon hours dancing away with them to some awesome-wicked Christian music! I love them all! Theres so many I can't even name them all! Woot!! Love yah guys! Muah!!

Laughing Out Loud...Are We Really?

LOL...one of the most common phrases used on the "net"...but think...how many times do you say it in a conversation...some people they say it after EVERYTHING! some rarely say it...how many people actually are laughing? I can pretty well guess that only about 0.00001 % of those people actually laugh when they say LOL...why am I writing this...I don't know....as I said this Blog is about my thoughts, my feelings and my beliefs...You can't change them...I am sorry...Laughing Out Loud...is an expression to get out of ackward situations...like say you say something really stupid on msn...you can not take it back so you say "lol" as though you are joking...right now jokes are the last thing everyone needs...i think were all about this close to falling off of the edge!

Life...as I know it...

Life? Life? Life? what is there to do in life? nothing? sit here? man i know what i should be doing...but i hate being alone...i am home alone so much! nothing to do...no one to talk to...yeah theres chatting on msn and habbo etc. but that can only get you so far!! man...i really dont know what to do...i wish someone could come and help me...i wish someone could come and talk to me one on one...without some how poking fun at me or something...not even on the phone either...face to face...listening what i have to say...thinking seriously about what i am going through...i hear so much whining...ive given up on going on backwardfish.com anymore because all it is is: "oh boo-hoo my boyfriend is sick" "boo-hoo i want a boyfriend" "boo-hoo my boyfriend has gone a trip for the weekend" i hear no things like "I need prayer for this friend who is about to kill her/himself" anymore because people fill it with crap...crap about boys...listen God chooses what and when you get a boyfriend...trust me im still waiting...i thought...nevermind i think i thought wrong...if i havent i dont know whats going on...but thats not the point...my point is life needs some spicing up and i need someone...close to my age to talk to...someone who can face to face talk with me about things in life...well i'll stop wasting ur time...not that anyone will probably read this...how about this ill stop wasting my time...

Worship and the "Christian" Youth

How many "Christian" youth out there worship everyday of their lives? Or do they only worship God when it is convient for them...i hear so many say...oh i dont like Christian music cause all they sing about is God....well d'uh thats what they are suppose to sing about...isnt it? or whats the point on calling them Christian? like come on....get with it....i learned in my experience that we need a daily dose of God from not only the Bible and prayer but from music...the Bible is great and so is talking to God and praying but you know you do get alot out of music that glorifies God to.....i know i am overcome with the grace of God everytime i listen to the song "Beautiful One" by Jeremy Camp....i just want to praise God for being wonderful!!!! and the song Enough by Jeremy Camp is also a great song!! you get nothing out of people like 3 doors down, system of a down, or eminem....yeah you can listen to them every so often but dont let them be the only things you listen to...here are a few good choices for Christian music:
1) Thousand Foot Krutch
2) Beaumont
3) MxPx
4) P.O.D.
5) Newboys
6) Jeremy Camp
7) Day Of Fire
8) Switchfoot
9) delirous?
10) Hawk Nelson
11) Skillet
and many many more....you can find some Christian music at www.UpperRoomBookstore.com

wow

wow....spiritual battles happen every day...my brother matt can testify to that...man....the stuff he has been through is absoultly terrifying but exciting at the same time...God is really working through the young people out on the streets of Vancouver who are witnessing to these poor desoulte people....pray for them and go to this website to find out more:
http://firebloodandrevolution.blogspot.com/
Peace

Coolness?

coolness...something everyone struggles with...i want to be cool but the "popular people" dont like me....boo hoo.....i say we lynch the popular people....like the only reason theyre popular is cause they say they are and guess what we let them be "popular"....man if we acted like them wouldnt we be the oh so "popular" people...i know that these people have no true friends...they dont trust anyone and friendships fall apart in the world of coolness all the time....i know first hand....but you know what...you dont need to have a huge group adoring you...all you need to have is a friend or two and the knowledge how to have fun without drugs, alcohol and sex....my friends and i have fun all the time with no drugs, sex or alcohol all you need is God in your life....and a little bit of sugar and you can have a blast...cool people cant do stuff uncool but we can...we can dress how we want to dress...talk the way we want to talk , eat what we want to eat believe how we want to believe and act how we want to act....does that not sound awesome in its self? give me a break who needs coolness?

Lies....

Lies...dispicable lies...i hate them....they ruin friendships, ruin life and ruin your feelings. spreading lies and rumors will only come back to you...usually the person you lied about will find out and they will get upset...like you cant lie about someone then expect them to not remember...yeah yeah you are to forgive and forget...man thats how i was brought up but i was also brought up that lying is a sin...if you dont know what sin is...look it up...the Bible is a nice place to find it....
here I would like to share a song that i know a lot of people now...
Revelations Revelations 21:8 21:8
Liars Burn in Hell, Liars Burn in Hell, BURN BURN BURN, BURN BURN BURN
Peace Out

Feelings?

Here's a question I have for all you guys out there...Do you guys enjoy making girls hurt? I have had soooo many hits at my emotions by many different guys...it hurts and I know i have become depressed because of it...some of you out there may know who i am talking about...heck some of you may be one the guys that have hurt me...all i want anymore is a real relationship with someone that actually acts like they care instead of telling me they do but in reality don't....or at least don't show it....being loved and cared for is something every girl wants....dont you guys understand that...or is that to much to deal with?

Forgivness

what is it to forgive and forget? does it mean that if we steal something that the owner shoud say oh well if you give it back i will not charge you and forgive you? does to forgive and forget mean there should be no consequences for your actions...of course you will get in trouble if you steal something but forgive and forget means to forgive and forget this whole thing after. like if you fight with your friend you will forgive each other quickly after the fight and eventually you will forget you ever fought...we should be like that with everyone and everything no matter how tough it is....God forgives...why cant we?